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i.
i'd wake up to the darkness that surrounds me
and reach around myself, gripping for a pillow or something to hold me
and then i'd hear you say
'shh, it's okay'
in a voice too deep for drowsiness
and i'd fall back into my nightmare.
ii.
i'd wake up to the darkness that surrounds me
and meet your powder blue gaze and you'd say
'don't worry, it'll feel better tomorrow'
and i wouldn't know what you meant until three hours later
when i caressed my new stitched heart and felt the wound on my rocketing lungs
and i'd fall back into my nightmare.
iii.
i'd wake up to the darkness that surrounds me
and the rain would be pouring outside the window with five-second lightning streaks
and the thunder would smack the ground and resonate my thoughts and you'd say
'you must've felt it when the lightning struck your happiness'
and i wouldn't tell you i only felt the lightning through your fingers
or the thunder through your undeserving tongue
and i'd fall back into my nightmare.
iv.
i'd wake up to the darkness that surrounds me
and i'd look over to what i thought was a sound asleep face
but as i reach for the light switch your eyes would flicker open and you'd say
'no, you're prettier in the dark'
so i'd think maybe we do have something i common
and i'd fall back into my nightmare.
v.
this time i'd wake up to the lights switched on with my heart trying to break through the stitches
while i watched you stack poetry books in your worn-out run away bag and i'd listen to you murmur sleepily
(i think this is the only time you've ever been tired)
about how the moon should've never turned those lights on and the sun should've let it go
and you'd skip over the clouds and fly away from me
and then i'd realize that maybe there's some reality in every nightmare and a little bit of light in the pitch darkness.
i'd wake up to the darkness that surrounds me
and reach around myself, gripping for a pillow or something to hold me
and then i'd hear you say
'shh, it's okay'
in a voice too deep for drowsiness
and i'd fall back into my nightmare.
ii.
i'd wake up to the darkness that surrounds me
and meet your powder blue gaze and you'd say
'don't worry, it'll feel better tomorrow'
and i wouldn't know what you meant until three hours later
when i caressed my new stitched heart and felt the wound on my rocketing lungs
and i'd fall back into my nightmare.
iii.
i'd wake up to the darkness that surrounds me
and the rain would be pouring outside the window with five-second lightning streaks
and the thunder would smack the ground and resonate my thoughts and you'd say
'you must've felt it when the lightning struck your happiness'
and i wouldn't tell you i only felt the lightning through your fingers
or the thunder through your undeserving tongue
and i'd fall back into my nightmare.
iv.
i'd wake up to the darkness that surrounds me
and i'd look over to what i thought was a sound asleep face
but as i reach for the light switch your eyes would flicker open and you'd say
'no, you're prettier in the dark'
so i'd think maybe we do have something i common
and i'd fall back into my nightmare.
v.
this time i'd wake up to the lights switched on with my heart trying to break through the stitches
while i watched you stack poetry books in your worn-out run away bag and i'd listen to you murmur sleepily
(i think this is the only time you've ever been tired)
about how the moon should've never turned those lights on and the sun should've let it go
and you'd skip over the clouds and fly away from me
and then i'd realize that maybe there's some reality in every nightmare and a little bit of light in the pitch darkness.
Literature
natural disasters.
dear heart:
years ago, you would be
burned alive all along your
seams and veins by ex-friends
and ex-lovers. it was the
worst thing in the world when
you shattered, but i promise it will
stop hurting,
someday.
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dear heart:
you are not losing your head
and losing time, and losing all
that is true. please do not ever
think that. you are just forgetting
to look at the skyline and falling
comets, and how beautiful they
can be.
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dear heart:
you were told that nostalgia
leaves this icky charring feeling, but
you never understood them
until she vanished.
left.
died.
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dear heart:
stop letting others
control your fate;
Literature
notesleep
playing my emphases like harp strings
your voice smokes thru the oaken bramble
pour a carbonated apology, a sun-stained
mile marked envelope, two ill-fitted birds,
hands small holes right before a rush of river
what it feels like being swallowed from the outside
crushing rings into truth serum, pretend
to be out of tune with that deception
I have been unable to parse my own persona
a pink cotton voice I remember thru the phone
I remember because it formed me into a granary
one crop after another of patriarchal idioms
whisper my secrets so softly into a glint of red hair
a saucer-eyed lace pattern cut into pine paper
I practice radical self lo
Literature
water
i am not afraid of death.
i did not want
the boy beneath the apple trees,
or the cherry petals
in the orchard, touched with invisible fingers
leaving brown indentations, bruised
with your inflection even on the brink of spring
not the one littered under the sunlit twigs
grappling for heaven
But the one lying exactly center field
staring straight at the sky--
waiting for a crash of thunder
for the paper flowers, metaphor for holding
over the sills of everything transient,
and left for erasing-- like a soul brimming
over the bridge of an emotion
strong enough to overcome itself.
brave boy with a thousand faces-- i see
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nyctophobia-phobia of darkness.
so listen here. i don't even know what i'm saying anymore. i just know that for once, my own poem actually means something to me.
so listen here. i don't even know what i'm saying anymore. i just know that for once, my own poem actually means something to me.
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this is painfully true for me it makes me feel better that someone else could put that in words.